Tuesday, August 28, 2007

It's personal myself and I we have some straightening out to do...

UGH where do I start - I neglect my blog when Im stressed instead of pouring out my heart to it, which is what I should do.

I just found out (well last week anyway) that I will be leaving my assignment yet AGAIN... and it just doesn't seem fair that I can't no matter how hard I try and work seem to get into a full time PERMANENT position with this firm. And then trying to find a "real job" is just plain ridiculous! I have sent out resumes ontop of resumes and NOTHING not even one FUCK YOU!

Im trying to stay strong through this and think that things happen for a reason, but I just can't seem to figure out what that reason is right now.

Add that to a really long depressing weekend and well this month is ending for shit!
This year my dad being gone hit me pretty hard... I'm having to field questions from DD (4) like "where's your daddy?" and it just tore me up... this is the first year since he died that I really cried about it. Who knows maybe I'm the one finally coming to terms with it.

Oh yeah and lets not forget that she started pre-k this last week as well - yet another "my little girl is growing up" milestone... what's next???

I think I just need some prozac... if I can't get that well then I'll take my Pat O'brians hurricanes and a fun night out to get my mind off things.

There are other things going on that I won't air on my blog that are just adding to my thoughts...

Im really loving Fergie's "Big Girls Don't Cry..." it's fitting this month...

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