Thursday, August 02, 2007

Im not sure why I have this blog... I hardly can think of anything to write - and when I do rarely do I write about it.

I know why I started it. Someone said something about me on her blog and I was MAD... MAD MAD - not just the not talk to you for a few days mad I mean I want nothing to do with you EVER again mad.

I've always had a hard time making real friends - I tell it like it is. If I don't like who you're dating I'll tell you so. That doesn't mean I won't be nice and civil and social if we're all out together. But I'll tell you how I really feel. I'm a smart ass as well. I have tons of aquaintences that I hang out with on a social level. But honestly I only have about 3 or 4 good friends.

I used to get upset that I wasn't part of the "in crowd" the ones that got all the attention etc. I was passing aquaintences with a few that were in that circle but overall I kept to myself. Again it used to bother me. Now - not so much. Im learning that those 3 or 4 really good friends that have stuck by me through it all are the ones that matter. They are the ones that I can count on!

I'm also beginning to feel very comfortable with myself. Not so much my physical appearance (im working at that) but my confidence level is growning some. I feel like I have a better grasp at who I am and who I want to "grow up" to be.

I just hope that I can raise my daughter to see that each of us was made differently and it doesn't matter if someone is short, tall, fat, skinny or even if they have some sort of physical or mental disability we all have feelings and needs. And maybe all that person needs is a good friend.

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